I have no idea where the time goes - I've been meaning to post this article about grieving and the holidays since December 7. Better late than never I always say - a phrase Kevin hated since he was usually on the receiving end of my lateness.
I disagree with one point in the article - I don't see that this gets easier. The first Christmas without Kevin was hard -- but my focus was on the fact that Kevin wasn't here that day. This Christmas will be more difficult as I am constantly reminded that Kevin won't EVER be here for this Christmas or any other.
Hard to feel cheery - but I am doing my best. The tree goes up tonight - that's the hardest thing for me to take care of because that was his task when it came to Christmas decorations around the house. Doing it alone is confusing because I can't NOT do it - but I can't stand doing it without him.
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